Anyway, I was extremely nervous that night, smoking a lot of cigarettes before my performance and drinking a little bit too much. I had big ideas on how i would open my performance, coming out full of confidence and opening really big, but that didn't happen. I mumbled out a "hello" to everyone and got straight into my performance.
What I didn't realise, was that Madlib and Peanut Butter Wolf were sitting on stage with me to my right watching my whole performance. This wasn't really the done thing by the main act, as they would normally be too busy thinking about how their own set was going to go.
Anyway, I caught on that they were watching, and saw that they were nodding their heads. That gave me a little more confidence, and i was able to perform the rest of my 7 song set quite well.
They caught up with me after my performance, which was also before theirs, and gave me props for the dope beats i had put together. Admittedly they weren't down with my Australian accent in the rhyming factor, but they really dug my beats. (So much so, Madlib actually stole my 808 hi hat thing i was doing with my beats in that particular set!)
Apparantly I had the same look in my eyes). They later announced that they were happy to have the "spirit of Charizma" in the building tonight. It felt good that they were talking about me, and that I reminded them of their good friend.
I was a bit floored at the end of the night, so I was spending a lot of time just on my own, pondering exactly what was going on. It was really nice to see Madlib, who was surrounded by fans, breakaway from them and give me a handshake, just to let me know he remembered me, and enjoyed my performance.
It was at that point I realised, I am supposed to be doing what I was doing, musically. Madlib is a great influence on me and i really admire his work. To have him show me respect for the work I was doing spoke volumes to my soul.
I was really suffering at that point, and for that to happen, it really gave me the strength to continue on with my musical journey.
If you would like to hear the most recent milestone in this journey, click here to listen to my debut album, "The Chase"